Yo! Happy wacky and frisky 2005 people!!! So how’s ur new year celebration?! Mine was… hilarious. I got sick…. and still sick! I have this what they call TIGDAS HANGIN - rashes.. lots of rashes!. It is an airborne disease… The doctor said that it isn’t really like the german measles. This is actually one of the rare symptoms of tonsillitis. And i got it from Mama.. who was then the last victim of this communicable disease in our house. The very 1st victim was Stel. and she got it from her seatmate. Then Nat got sick too. then papa. then dobby! (haha.. yeahh.. our dog!).. and mama.. lastly.. ME. and i swear… i’m gonna pass this to my classmates on Monday! lol!

Anyways… I was watching Extra Challenge 3 nights ago when papa asked me to go with him to buy some meds in the drugstore. Gawd! The drugstore was crowded!! Divisoria ba ito?!! *lol* I was like standing there for 48 years, waiting for my turn. When the drugstore lady approached me (yeah.. thank God, it’s my turn!), i ordered 10 pieces of each medicine mama listed on the index card. When i got my change, the lady gave me a calendar. The 2nd calendar i received from their store. (i got the 1st one a week ago) Not again! I thought. We have like bunches of 2005 calendars here already. And you’re giving another one?! Same designs. Same Days. Same months…Hay… Oh..Here i go again. Reminscing the past… What the heck happened to me this year 2004? You really want to know, eh?! Awkie.. here we go…

January - the month of serious heart to heart talk with Jepoy. This was the most painful and heartbreaking converstion i ever encountered. This really made me cry.

February - The freakin saddest month. I lost my ONLY 18th bday’s souvenir. I wasted my papa’s money. My newly designed N3650 was stolen by a mere asshole in NBS, Recto. And i wish, he already met his karma. better if he’s dead. Mean, huh?! And 2 weeks after (as far as i can remember), another stupidity of xyLa happened. I left my old fone on the tricycle. Good thing, I was able to retrieve it (Thanks to Mr. trike driver)… although the one who saw it crashed my sim card in to pieces. that is the reason… why I LOST CONTACT with Jepoy.

March - another freakin sad month. after my celfone tragedy, another tragedy came in… our digicam was stolen by my brother’s schoolmate. that digicam was bought in Japan. and papa really saved for it! and only a son of a gaddam biatch took that “treasure” away from us. One good thing that happened in this month is that i realized that i have friends by my side. the SCF.

April - our section was “dissolved”. the scf’s except joms, xtian, and jm transferred to bsn616. this was the month that i was a given a chance to know a crush personally… i was actually starting to fall for him… sad thing about it is that i kept it to myself…

May - we already separated ways. and i really got sad. he gave me a souvenir and he’s the only and first guy who gave me such thing. i was so touched. and in return i gave him a personalized souvenir. anyways, at the end of the month, i told some SCFs the truth about what i feel for him. and like what i have expected.. they were shocked.

June - our friendship grew deeper until he finally admitted that… he likes someone. not me. it’s my friend. what did i do then? i advised him not to give up. he followed what i told him. i didnt know if i would be happy or lonely. another sad fact is that the SCF took their own ways too. we were transderred into different sections.

July - i celebrated my 19th bday like an ordinary day. no big deal thingy here except for the fact that i was really hurting already everytime i see him with his girl, my friend. I call this month as the learning experience month.. because this was the time that i encountered poor people. and through that experience… my head was like banged on the wall… and i woke up.. i woke up in the reality.. that despite of family and financial problems… i am still a lucky girl.

August - he told me that they were going steady already. ouch. and i decided… to be on my own again. and this time… stronger.

September - for the 1st time.. i saw a pregnant woman’s vagina. and i even touched it during the repair of the perineal lacerations. i was like an ice melting into water while touching it. it’s bloody you know! you can’t blame me! you’re curious aren’t you?! how did this all happen? uhmm.. excuse me?! remember i am a student nurse… i had my duty at Tondo Lying Center and i assisted in the Labor and Delivery room. get it?

October - my personal collection of diseases was added. i had an amoebiasis. and i got it from the lying in. what the?! Good thing that happened in this month was the… Sembreak!!! and of course.. i was able to meet some teentalkers in person!!

November - i really don’t know if this was a wrong or right move. i didn’t go with my fam to the province last All Saint’s day. I told them that i dont want to go because i have class the next day and i dont wanna get tired. but the truth is that… i am avoiding to see someone that i have lost contact with. i was not scared of seeing a ghost in the cemetery…. but i was scared of seeing a person i don’t want to see ever again even in my wildest dreams. i know.. i was such a coward to face what lies ahead. but… i think it’s not the right time to see and talk to him again after what happened for the last couple of months. Anyways, this was the month that i met new friends again. yeah.. new semester.. and new classmates…

December - i found a new friend. i dont know what’s gonna happen. i am just doing the right thing.. that is.. going with the flow. wish me luck. celebrated christmas with the
whole family.. and i am very happy!

so that’s all folks…
i can say that 2004 has taught me a lot. to become strong. to be contented. to accept the truth. to give every best you have. to believe in the power of your dreams.. and
survive… starstruck!