Unexpected things happened this week. I experienced a lot for the past few days which I have not anticipated that would be going to happen to me.

Tuesday
I went out with this guy friend last Tuesday. He invited me to hang out with his friends. I was expecting that I would felt out of place because first of all, that would be the first time I’ll meet his friends and second, I am not into vices. Well, okay. I tried to smoke last week but like what I have posted in my deleted entry that would be my first and last. I was right, I really felt out of place. I watched them play billiards, smoke and drink. They were having fun, you know, unlike me who was there, sitting on a high chair, unfortunately inhaling all the nicotine and drinking an iced tea. They asked me, “What do you do in your life since you don’t smoke, drink or play billiards?” You know what I told them? “I just study”. One of them chuckled. I was partly joking when I answered but deep inside me, I was serious. You all know that I am really serious with my studies and I don’t care if other people don’t. This is my life. This is my future. And when I watched him and his friends enjoy, I realized that we have different worlds. This is not my world. My interests are a lot way different from theirs. And I enjoy what I do in my life. When I was there, I was wondering if they were thinking if I am a kill joy person or a boring person. To my surprise, they still invited me to go out with them. I told them that I am not sure. Yes, I am not really sure because I know if I’ll go out with them again, the same scenario would happen. And I don’t want to feel being out of place ever again. I love going out but that’s not the kind of place I usually go to. I just don’t like the aura.

Friday
I don’t want to put into details what have happened last night because we (our group) promised that what happened last night at the house we’re staying will be kept secret. I just want to thank our very kind clinical instructor for what he had done because without him, a friendship will be totally ruined. I learned that a friendship doesn’t only require honesty, trust and loyalty, but also forgiveness and acceptance. If you have a friend, you should not expect a lot of things from him or her. Whatever that person is, you just have to accept that he or she is like that. Yes, you can be there to advise him or her for her to change her negative attitudes but you should not require him or her to just change it immediately. Changing something in your personality can not just happen in a snap. It happens gradually. I admit that that is my mistake. I expect a lot from other people and because of that attitude; I am easily disappointed with them. And I promise… I really promise to lessen that kind of attitude that I have. When we were in elementary, forgiveness has always been taught in school and I just forgot applying what I have learned. But last night, I felt relieved when I and my other group mate had this reconciliation. (Darn! My tears are starting to fall!) With just one hug, everything that have happened between us popped in the air like it just apparrated (a Harry Potter vocabulary). I know that the trust wouldn’t be regained as fast as a bullet but now that everything is has been talked about and fixed… we’re starting anew again as if we’ve just met last night. I am glad that this happened last night because in just nearly 62 days, we will all part ways and face the real world. I am just thankful that you know, I will graduate without any grudges or any guilt feelings with my friends.

Thank you, Lord. I know that these things happened in our group because You have plans for us… You want us to learn something. I may have broken into pieces but I am thankful because I know you will mold me again into one and make me a better person in the future. Amen.

Saturday
Congratulate us for we have finished our thesis in 2 weeks. Yeyness! Wish us luck for our defense. I can smell the graduation spirit!

PS
Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! (Yey! I’m gonna celebrate it again alone! Woot! Kudos to all singles out there!ü)