Have you ever felt that you wanted to write something but as soon as you position yourself infront of the computer/typewriter/paper and pencil, all those things you were thinking just popped in the air?

That is what I am undergoing now. Mental block! Argh! I am like sitting in front of this old computer for an hour and I still can’t think of what to type. I am planning to write a composition/article for this very special person in my life right now but I don’t know how to start. Crap. I need a memory enhancer!

Anyway, I just got back from La Union. Last Saturday was my uncle’s burial. I told myself that I won’t cry. But when I threw the white rose I was holding on his grave, my tears kept falling. He died because of lung cancer. My uncle (my mom’s older brother) and I are not really close. One thing that I remember before he passed away is when they lived here in our house for a month because he had to undergo chemotherapy in Chinese General Hospital. That was the time that the retake or no retake issue was still sizzling. Looking back on those days he was with us, I can still feel the warmth of his hand while telling me that I should just be patient and soon, everything I have sacrificed and worked hard for will pay off. Thanks Uncle. I have always put that in my mind. I know that you’re happy now wherever you are. Thanks again for everything.

Argh. I wish after I post this, I can write that article I have been planning. And I do hope that he would like it. *sigh*

PS
I’ve noticed that almost everyone’s going back to free blog servers.. err.. whatever you call them. Welcome to the club! Hehe!

1. ian wrote:
   November 6th, 2006 at 8:18 am

   Barado na parehas yung mga gateways na dinadaan sa utak natin. Aba uso na pala libre ngayon ah! Makalipat nga rin. hehe.
   RN kana pala! Congrats!!! :D

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2. Talamasca wrote:
   November 6th, 2006 at 9:47 am

   Every good writer experiences mental block. Just unwind or something, and everything will surely fall into place. :-)

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3. dreamprincez wrote:
   November 6th, 2006 at 11:14 am

   ate xyla!! i miss you na!.. don’t say that you’re not a good hostess.. for me you’re one of the best! thanks for always being there! ingat! love you! mwahhh

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4. Mallow wrote:
   November 6th, 2006 at 12:29 pm

   Well I believe that you shouldn’t really be forcing yourself to write about something if nothing really comes into your mind at the moment. Just wait a little while and I’m sure you’ll be posting a very long entry then. haha!

   Oh, condolence to your uncle. May he rest in peace. +

   and yeah, I moved back to blogger because I thought I couldn’t manage the site anymore. Less people are interested in what I write… stuff like that. So might as well save space for Nicole (my hostess before). ;)

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5. Daisy wrote:
   November 6th, 2006 at 4:21 pm

   Hey just came from candymag.com. I hope you got to write your article now.

   And it’s OK to cry when people die. At least you get over them.

   Hope you’re doing cool now and take care!

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6. Honey wrote:
   November 7th, 2006 at 10:41 pm

   Ohh, mental blocks! All the time!
   Cry is natural, if you want to cry, just cry, it really helps! I am really sorry about his death :(

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7. lai wrote:
   November 8th, 2006 at 5:07 pm

   haha i noticed too, it’s like everyone’s saying “to hell with this, im sticking with free blogsites!! WHOOT”

   anypoo, condolence on yr uncle, there have been plenty of deaths all around, idk why…

   and oh yes, mental block = lai in a nutshell HAHA!

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8. Erika wrote:
   November 8th, 2006 at 6:21 pm

   i experience that often. yung tiopong ang dami mong gustong sabihin pero when you’re about to write it, wala na. hehe.

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9. Reyn wrote:
   November 9th, 2006 at 6:26 am

   the free blogs are less of a hassle kasi? hehe.

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10. estell wrote:
    November 9th, 2006 at 10:32 am

    Oh yes, I’ve been experiencing a lot of those lately.

    Mental block=TRIGO=hemorrage.

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11. Joyce wrote:
    November 9th, 2006 at 3:29 pm

    my mind is always blocked so i couldn’t think straight anymore. teehee!! condolence pala sa inyo twinnie. i guess it’s okay to cry specially if the person who left us made an impact in our lives diba?

    teehee! i enjoy blogging on my blogger din eh…yeah, so maybe one day i might join the club pag nagsawa na ako to be hosted. ^___^ amishu! tc!

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12. Xylaloo wrote:
    November 10th, 2006 at 3:11 am

    thanks guys for the comfort. ayun.. i started doing the article na. haha. i wish he would like it. hihi. <3

    thanks again!

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13. LaNa wrote:
    November 17th, 2006 at 11:26 am

    yup! always…. especiallly before i write/type or whatever.. in my blog.. most especially in my test/quiz! :)

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