Yesterday (Tuesday), I visited my OB-Gyne for my monthly check-up. I showed her the result of my recent transrectal ultrasound. She told me that my ovarian cysts did not get smaller but grew a little bit bigger instead. She told me that I’ll stop my monthly injections and go back to my usual contraceptive pills since the medication I had for the past three months has no effect.

Going back to my contraceptive pills has no assurance that I’ll get cured since that was the first treatment I had when I was diagnosed with endometriosis and ovarian cysts. So my doctor told me that it would be better if I have it removed thru surgery since my cysts’ size fit with the “required size” for operation.

When I heard my doctor’s recommendation, I got scared. I worried about my future. I immediately asked her what will the complications be. Will I still get pregnant after that, is it painful, etc. This is my first time to undergo a surgery. When I was still a nursing student, we were taught to give comfort to our pre-operative patients. I used to wonder how does it feel like being in their shoes. Now I know…

This afternoon, I texted my doctor that I and my mother will meet her in her clinic to talk about the operation. We’ll have it scheduled as soon as possible. Probably, it will be scheduled next week.

Omg. The thought of that surgery makes me anxious and fidgety. I wish I could request for a bikini cut. Haha. I don’t want to have a big vertical scar on my stomach. It must be hidden! Lol.

Am I really ready for this? I think so. As long as I have my faith to the Lord that I can hold on, I could get through this.

See you after my surgery.