It has been four months since I have learned that I have an endometriosis - a painful dysmenorrhea. It has also been four months that I am trying to suffer from the severe and intolerable pain. Crying gallons of tears because of the agony inflicted by the disease is like a normal scenario for me every time I have my period.
Three days ago while I was in my review class, our reviewer talked about endometriosis and its effects to a woman. Once again, I heard that the woman is at risk for infertility. In a normal menstruation, the endometrial tissues that has sloughed off will come out from the woman’s vagina. But in endometriosis, there is a reflux or back flow of the endometrial tissues. The endometrial tissues will then go back to the fallopian tube, ovaries or in the peritoneal cavity. So every time the uterus thickens because of the hormones in a normal menstrual cycle, the endometrial tissues that back flowed also thickens which will then block the fallopian tube. If that’s the case, how will the egg cell meet with the sperm cell in case of coitus? Right?
Sorry for the medical terms I used. I just don’t know how to explain them in a layman’s term. I became sad again while our reviewer was explaining the pathophysiology of endometriosis. Like any other woman, I also want to have a baby - a child or an offspring that I can call my own. What if I got infertile in the future? What will happen to me? Will a guy still love me? Will he be able to accept that we can not have our own child because I am barren? Those were just some of the questions I kept on asking myself. And another question that needs an answer… Why me?
I know that no one will be able to respond to those questions except God. I know that in time, I’ll be able to find those answers. I just have to be patient, right?
Hay. I’ll just forget about this and deal with it. I’m just kinda tired of taking more than 1000mg of Tylenol a day to relieve the pain.
I’ll just pray. I know God always listens to me and answers my prayers like what He did when I asked Him to pass me in the retake.
P. S.
Thanks to those people who congratulated me. =)
Xyla. 23 years old. Female. Registered Nurse since
2006. FEU Graduate. 
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August 30th, 2007 at 7:37 pm
Ahh.. now i understand endometriosis.
pero.. bakit may pain? what causes the pain? the blockage in the fallopian tube?
hmm..
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Will there be a time you’ll be dependent in pain relievers? or would there be a time you’ll be numb with the pain?
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anyway, salamat sa info about merge. :) sabi sakin nung nag inquire ako, baka daw mapunta ako sa either section 2 or 3 if i enrolled tomorrow.
August 31st, 2007 at 11:41 am
May natutunan na naman ako sayo Ate xy!:) Don’t worry. Kaya yan! Pray lang kay God.
August 31st, 2007 at 12:18 pm
Nakakatakot naman ate. di ko alam kung may ganyan din yung akin or plain dysmenorrhea lang. hay, pray na nga lang tayo na magkakaroon tayo ng mga mini you and me. thanks for the info.
August 31st, 2007 at 4:01 pm
I didn’t know that endometriosis was that heart wrenching. X( I’m sorry. Somebody will love you. I know. If he won’t accept you for who you are or for whatever your case is, then, he’s not the one for you. I know for sure someone’s out there for you, infertile or fertile.
September 2nd, 2007 at 1:15 pm
hi Xyla. :) naku may ganong effect pala ang endometriosis! ngayon ko lang nalaman…. nakakatakot. :( i’m scared kasi everytime na magkaron ako masakit na masakit din and di pa ako nagpapatingin actually pero i’m scared na baka may endometriosis ako! huhuhu.. :(
as always, take you for the informative post. dami ko na natututuhan sa posts mo eeeh. :D
March 28th, 2008 at 10:21 am
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June 25th, 2008 at 4:11 pm
I would just like to thank you as i now know that i am not the only person in the world feeling this way. I am finding things very dificult to cope with at the moment especially as i have had so much un paid time off of work from the pain. my advice to you is to try yoga as the more stressed about the condition you get, the worse you feel. Like you i am extremely scared and only just about to turn 21, i’m not sure what life has in store for me. Please keep the blogs up. xxx